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Day 11: Clinging

Monday, June 20th, 2011

Two very different experiences this morning, and the only word I could think of to link them is “clinging.”

First thing this morning, we checked out of the hotel, as for the next week we’re staying with local families to add a bit of local flavor to our in country experience.

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Meet Maria. Maria is Jewish, and one of the local representatives of the Association Israelite du Maroc, whose offices are located adjacent to the synagogue in downtown Rabat. You can’t find it anywhere on the map because it’s not listed. There are also no signs announcing its existence on the street. It maintains an unassuming position in an office block that could best be described as neo-Soviet in its architecture. The locals are extremely protective of it. After the bombing of a synagogue in Djerba several years ago, and also in Marrakesh, you don’t get to know where the synagogue is if you don’t have business there. Whether this is characteristic of what we are told repeatedly is the national attitude of protection toward its Jewish population or because the locals don’t want to deal with the resultant mess and crackdown should terrorists execute a plot in their midst is hard to determine … and probably irrelevant.

Maria looks to be in her sixties, and she bosses around the caretaker, Saieed, with an air that is pretty common to women in the Mediterranean, even on its southern shores. Saieed is Muslim, and wears a skullcap so that he doesn’t have to keep donning and doffing a kippeh every time he enters the room on the first floor where the synagogue is located.

The synagogue is small and, although the visit is scheduled to last over an hour, it’s clear that we’ve seen everything there is to see within moments of entering the single room synagogue. It used to be the school, you see, but they don’t need it any more. There are no children in the Jewish community here. All of the families left – mostly to Canada and France. Israel, interestingly, comes up only as an afterthought. Yes, of course there are some in Israel … but mostly Canada and France. Apparently in Rabat they hung on long enough to get reports back from Israel that the new Zionist entity wasn’t quite as welcoming to Morocco’s Jews as was promised and they decided to seek out better opportunities elsewhere.

Oh, the tourists come, Maria says. They do, and just last week we had a wedding. We are shown the Mikvah, the purification bath where Jewish women are cleansed before their wedding. The grooms get married upstairs, and we are shown where the wedding feast is felt … and, indeed, it’s a room capable of holding a feast and not much else.

There are questions we want to ask, of course, but we know we’ll only get the party line. The Jewish community is, quite literally, dying out here. Without young people the future of what used to be the largest community of Jews anywhere in the Arab world is pretty much written on the wall. And what will become of Maria and her ilk? Who will sit shiva for them when they pass?

The visit reaches an obvious end, even though, as mentioned, our time is supposed to be much longer. We’ve seen what there is to say, and Maria has nothing left to say. It’s a room where perhaps a hundred still gather on Shabbat and high holidays. What more is there to say?

We head down to the street and board the bus, and look up to see Maria and Saieed waving at us as we leave. Soon the block housing the Israelite Association of Morocco is lost among so many other identical ones, and it’s likely that none of us could find the place again if we were asked to do so.

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Our next destination is the Cathedral Saint-Pierre in Rabat, the main Catholic church in the Moroccan capital. We arrive early, having been warned that the 11 o’clock mass is usually full (well, that and there wasn’t much else to do at the synagogue).

We enter the sanctuary to the sounds of an African choir practicing for the mass. Several of us take seats in the last pew – most of us aren’t Catholic, only two or three speak French, the language the mass will be conducted in, and there is an unspoken agreement among several of us that if the mass goes on for too long we’ll leave.

We don’t. At a signal I miss entirely, the congregation rises and the service begins. The pews are full – nearly all of the faces are from black Africa. Many of the women are in colorful garments that are clearly from francophone West Africa. There are more people who appear to be Vietnamese or Laotian than I would have expected to see at this, the far corner of the former French Empire. And there are a couple of very old ladies who appear to be remnants of the French protectorate: they were born here, and they’re going to die here, even though this is no longer their country.

The service is entirely in French, save for an Agnes Dieu prayer in Latin and a hymn sung in what we later identify as Langali, a diminutive language from the Democratic Republic of Congo. A couple of the French speakers consult their neighbors in the pew, and we discover that each week, a hymn from a different sub-Saharan language is introduced. Last week, it was one of the Togolese languages. Who can say what it will be next week?

Outside, after the service, a few enterprising Muslim charity cases hawk the crowd for coin. This is also one of the few places that you can see the sub-Saharan congregate amongst themselves. The ladies who are the wives of ambassadors zip off in cars with their chauffeurs, clearly marked by the orange Corps Diplomatique plates.  The others chat for a long while, and many are still there after we head off to lunch at a nearby Italian restaurant. They’ll spend the rest of the week trying to blend in to Morocco and trying to pretend that the locals don’t resent their presence here.

You see, most of these people don’t particularly want to be here in Morocco. They’ve set their sights a little farther north, and Morocco is just a way point. They’re aiming for Europe.  Many of them may eventually wind up in the notorious Spanish refugee camp in the Ceuta enclave, and its entirely likely that some of them will attempt to cross into Europe … and some will die in the attempt to cross the strait of Gibraltar. Stories are harsh about the traffickers who ply the Strait, almost as bad as those who traffic along the U.S./Mexican border.

And so, I’m left with the thought of clinging hanging in my mind. Two disparate groups of people, barely clinging to existence here in this corner of Africa, waiting for fate to intervene. It’s no wonder they seek solace in religion as often as they can.

Day Six: Sleepless in Rabat

Tuesday, June 14th, 2011

I am sitting in the courtyard of a converted villa in the swank Souissi district of Rabat, the capital of Morocco, where it is a perfectly pleasant 78 degrees. The courtyard villa is now a language center, and the group is currently taking an introductory language course wherein they are learning the Arabic alphabet. Good for them.

We arrived Sunday … Good grief, was that really just two days ago? … Into Casablanca. The airport was a little dumpier than I remembered it from my last visit three years ago. The customs agent was thrilled that I spoke Arabic and gave me my first language test of the trip:

“Where did you learn Arabic?”
“Egypt,” says I.
“Do you love Egypt?” he asked.
“I do,” says I, “bhebbha kteeran
“Morocco,” he informed me, “is better than Egypt.”

We shall see.

Yesterday was our first full day in Rabat. For the first two weeks that we’re in country, we’ll be here in the capital, a pleasant seaside city of two million. Mornings are taken up with language classes, and afternoons involve lectures and site visits.

As one of the two people in the group with Arabic language training, I’m not in the intro class that was arranged. After a placement test that pretty much used every ounce of my jet lagged brain, I had a long discussion with the placement coordinator. Essentially, it boils down to this: my spoken Arabic is near perfect, but my written grammar is terrible – I flat out forgot how to construct active and passive participles. So, for the next couple of days I’m sitting in on one of the intermediate classes where they’re doing that stuff, and next week I’ll start a class on the Moroccan dialect, which is what I really wanted to do.

The dynamics of language are quite different here than in Egypt. I had been told that Arabic speaking foreigners are somewhat rare in Morocco, which seems odd given the number of foreigners who come here to study. The dining room staff doesn’t know what to do with me, and are more happy to seek discussion with the members of the group who speak French, especially the maitre’d who quite visibly sneered the first evening when I tried to ask him for something in Arabic.

The maids, on the other hand, think I am the best thing ever. They keep stopping me in the hallway to engage me in conversation and it generally takes me forever to dash the few feet from my room to the elevator.

I have photos – quite a few from last evening’s visit to the Chellah (an historic site not too far from the hotel), but I’m on my iPad at the moment and haven’t really had a chance to go through and sort out the good ones. So, stay tuned.

So far the group seems to be doing well. I still haven’t decided if one particular member is eccentric or crazy, but she is, at least, crazy in a non offensive way.

And that’s all for now. More dispatches later…

Border Issues, or, Return of the Sepulchre Volante

Wednesday, February 25th, 2009

It’s a week after I swore up and down that I was going to make a concerted effort to return to blogging on a more regular basis, and this would be my very first post since then.  The irony is so rich that I could serve it with ice cream.

I have a valid excuse: for the past couple of days, I’ve been on the road down in the Rio Grande Valley.  On Monday, we were conducting training in Edinburg, Texas, and on Tuesday, we were in Laredo:

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I took my camera with me, convinced that photographic opportunities were going to present themselves.  Unfortunately, save for the cemetery that was overrun with balloons (the one that I drove past at a good sixty miles an hour), not much appeared that was photo worthy.

I’ve always enjoyed traveling down to the Valley.  The people we’re down there to train are always unbelievably savvy and actually interested in what we’re there to do (and turn out in good numbers — our session in Edinburg may well have been the largest one we’ve ever done).  The Valley itself is quite unlike anywhere else in the state of Texas, which is another reason why I like going down there.  You drive and drive across miles of ranching land (which, to the naked eye, would appear to be synonymous with “nothingness”) and then, just as you reach the outskirts of the urban areas on either of the two highways that run down there, a most interesting geographic transformation takes place.  All of a sudden, the scrub land gives way to lush, green fields.  Cactus becomes palm trees.  And suddenly, it feels like you’ve managed to drive through a wormhole into south Florida (senior citizens with RVs included).

We’ve done work in Brownsville, Texas, before, which is absolutely the end of the line.  There’s no part of Texas farther south than Brownsville – from that point forward, it’s all Mexico.  This time, we were in Edinburg, about an hour’s drive west. 

Our local contact in Brownsville, with whom we’ve become friendly over the years, used to take us to a restaurant across the border in Mexico.  This trip, however, we didn’t discuss crossing the border.  For one, the passport requirement for land crossings kicked in last month, and I don’t like using my passport to enter the United States because apparently there’s something on my Customs and Border Patrol record that makes immigration officers frown.  Second, and more critically, the situation on the Mexican side of the border is pretty tense at the moment.  The State Department issued a warning last week for Americans traveling in the border region, and a good number of the bridges were shut down due to citizen protests believed to have been orchestrated by one or another of the drug cartels battling for control of the major cities along the US border.

So, after we completed our session in Edinburg and headed north for our first-ever session in Laredo, we did not cross the border and take the more direct and apparently superior Mexico Highway 2 that runs between Reynosa and Nuevo Laredo.  Instead, we took the main highway on this side, US Highway 83.

I wrote many months ago about a trip in a service taxi in Morocco that we’ve since dubbed the “flying coffin.”  The trek on US 83 kind of reminded me of that trip.  It wasn’t that I was pulling up behind semi-trucks and then pulling out blindly into the opposing lane to execute a passing maneuver, as our insane Moroccan driver had done, but it certainly was interesting in a “Aren’t you glad you have Mutual of Omaha?” sort of way.  Vehicles pulled out onto the road (which becomes two lanes after civilization is left behind — which happens very quickly) apparently without regard or interest to whether there was oncoming traffic and whether or not it would have time to slow down.  More than once, I got sweaty palms noticing large vehicles in my lane that were traveling in the opposite direction, in the midst of trying to pass slower vehicles but in no particular hurry to get back over to their own side.

And then there was the omnipresent border patrol.  At nearly every vista where the mostly flat geography was interrupted by a hill that afforded a view toward the border off to our left, there was an SUV from the border patrol parked on the side of the road, apparently full of officers who were, presumably, less interested in illegal immigrants than drug traffickers.

I won’t say that it wasn’t a great relief that we managed to reach the outskirts of Laredo before the sun went down.

Our contact for the next day was a very excitable lady who, while very nice, was also a level of manic that might require medication.  Within two minutes of her arrival in the morning, we had established where we would be having lunch.  She also gleefully told us that there had been so much interest in our session that she had reopened registration the day before — which would have been fine had this not left us going through all of our things hoping for one or two copies of brochures and worksheets so that we wouldn’t find ourselves in the awkward position of telling people that they had to share.  Fortunately, at the end of the day, we managed to scrape by with nearly no extras, but enough things for everyone in the room.

Over lunch, she regaled us with stories of life on the border.  “I won’t go over there,” she said.  “It’s really bad.  I mean, they kidnap Americans for the ransom.  Even though I’m lower middle class, we’ve already figured out that if one of us gets kidnapped, we can count on our friends to raise thirty, forty thousand dollars for ransom for me.”  (How this situation would present itself in light of her first statement was a question none of us wanted to raise.)  She then went on to tell us, “You know, they harvest organs over there.  The media doesn’t report on this stuff, but I know it’s happening.  I mean, if you’re sick and you can find a rich American than no one’s going to miss, you kidnap them and take them to the black market.  Look at any one of you — I mean, you’re young and fit.  They’d take your kidneys without a second thought.”

She then went on to tell us that she really wanted to get a gun.  “A cousin of mine lives in Houston, and she carries, and this one night she was being followed and the car pulled up next to her at a light.  So she took the gun out and put it on the dashboard, and they drove off in a hurry.  So, I want to get one, too.”  Clearly her kidneys depended on it.

And so it was, when I rolled into my driveway last night, with both of my kidneys still firmly in place, that it occurred to me to wonder whether that was an indication that I’m no longer young and fit, and my kidneys aren’t desirable.  Hey, wait a minute!  How come the Laredo cartel doesn’t want my kidneys?  They’re perfectly good! 

Hmph.

Anyway.  That was my last trip for a while.  I’m looking forward to being able to put my feet up and relax this weekend, free of travel plans and hotel rooms and chain restaurants.  The conspiracy theories do make for good blog fodder, though …

Contradicting myself

Thursday, January 29th, 2009

I found this meme on Matt‘s blog.  I am feeling uninspired today, so I have stolen it.  Bwa ha! And yes, that kind of contradicts my post yesterday. My blog. Shut up.

The rules are these: bold the items you’ve done; don’t bold items you haven’t done.  Sticking to my principles, I shall not tag anyone for the meme, but let me know if you do it!

1.Started your own blog. Um … hello?

2. Slept under the stars.  If tents count, yeah.

3. Played in a band. I was a band geek in middle school.

4. Visited Hawaii. Yes!  I want to go back.

5. Watched a meteor shower .  Saw one fall over the pyramids.  That was cool.

6. Given more than you can afford to charity. I give to charity, but never that much. I’m too nervous about money.

7. Been to Disney World / Land. Been to Disney World a couple of times. Never as an adult, though.

8. Climbed a mountain. I climbed Mt. Sinai in the dark. Won’t do it again.

9. Held a praying mantis.

10. Sang a solo. I was in musical theater in high school. Interestingly enough, this was before I knew I was gay.

11. Bungee jumped.

12. Visited Paris. Unless Charles deGaulle Airport counts, no.

13. Watched a lightning storm at sea. I don’t think so? I know there have been storms while we’ve been at sea, but can’t recall watching the lightning.

14. Taught yourself an art from scratch.

15. Adopted a child. Does Mocha count?

16. Had food poisoning.

17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty. Every time I’ve been there, it’s been closed.

18. Grown your own vegetables. Yep. Sometimes I even remember to harvest them before they rot, too.

19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France.

20. Slept on an overnight train. I slept on the train from Aswan to Cairo. On the way from Cairo to Luxor I was awake most of the night because I had never traveled through Middle Egypt and wanted to see all the places I hadn’t ever been. Considering it was an overnight train, this was perhaps not the easiest thing to do.

21. Had a pillow fight. In college. Broke my little finger.

22. Hitch hiked.

23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill. “Wow, Chris must be sick. I heard him getting on a plane.”

24. Built a snow fort. Um, yeah.

25. Held a lamb.

26. Gone skinny dipping. Interestingly, I don’t think I have.

27. Run a Marathon.

28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice.

29. Seen a total eclipse. Not a total one, but near total.

30. Watched a sunrise or sunset. Yep.

31. Hit a home run. Not officially–I had a friend who was into softball as a kid, and we played a lot, but always in the vacant lot. Who can say if they were homers?

32. Been on a cruise. With Ray to the Yucatan twice, and on the Nile.

33. Seen Niagara Falls in person. Once you’ve seen it, there’s no real reason to go back.

34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors. I’ve been to Greece and met the extended family but have not yet made it to the place where either grandparent was born.

35. Been to Amish community. Northeast Ohio.

36. Taught yourself a new language. I taught myself Swedish. Everything else I had to take a class for.

37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied. Is that even possible?

38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person.

39. Gone rock climbing. I did one of those walls in a gym once. Does that count?

40. Seen Michelangelo’s David.

41. Sung karaoke.

42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt. When I was a kid. I’d love to go back to Yellowstone.

43. Bought a stranger a meal in a restaurant. I’ve bought strange people meals before …

44. Visited Africa. Egypt, Morocco, Tanzania. And I’ve changed planes in Nairobi.

45. Walked on a beach by moonlight.

46. Been transported in an ambulance.

47. Had your portrait painted.

48. Gone deep sea fishing.

49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person.

50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris. I saw it when landing in Paris once – does that count? Probably not.

51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling. Snorkeling, in the Red Sea, very briefly. I’m not coordinated enough.

52. Kissed in the rain. Have I … ? I … oh, sweetie? Next time it rains, we need to cross this off the list.

53. Played in the mud. Aren’t four year olds genetically designed to be attracted to mud?

54. Gone to a drive-in theater.

55. Been in a movie.

56. Visited the Great Wall of China.

57. Started a business.

58. Taken a martial arts class.

59. Visited Russia.

60. Served at a soup kitchen.

61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies.

62. Gone whale watching.

63. Gotten flowers for no reason.

64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma. Not allowed to (5 year ban after malaria medication. Well, that and the other thing.)

65. Gone sky diving. Um, no.

66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp.

67. Bounced a check. Fortunately, the bank has always been good enough to cover it for me, usually for a massive fee.

68. Flown in a helicopter.

69. Saved a favorite childhood toy.

70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial. I’ve taken a nap there, too, waiting for the Fourth of July fireworks.

71. Eaten Caviar. Tastes like cold fish jelly.

72. Pieced a quilt.

73. Stood in Times Square. Years ago. I’d like to go back to New York City … when I can afford it.

74. Toured the Everglades. It gets old after a while.

75. Been fired from a job.

76. Seen the Changing of the Guard in London. Been many times, but I’ve never actually been there to see the Changing of the Guard.

77. Broken a bone. See #21.

78. Been on a speeding motorcycle.

79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person.

80. Published a book.

81. Visited the Vatican.

82. Bought a brand new car. Two, in fact.

83. Walked in Jerusalem. Got heatstroke in Jerusalem, too.

84. Had your picture in the newspaper.

85. Read the entire Bible. At this point, I probably have. Not all the way through in one sitting, tho.

86. Visited the White House.

87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating.

88. Had chickenpox. I was in kindergarten. I think I still have a scar on my right leg from it.

89. Saved someone’s life.

90. Sat on a jury.

91. Met someone famous.

92. Joined a book club. Ran a book club for a little while, in fact.

93. Lost a loved one.

94. Had a baby. I’ve had a cow.

95. Seen the Alamo in person. Not that impressive.

96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake. Seems like it would sting.

97. Been involved in a lawsuit.

98. Owned a cell phone.

99. Been stung by a bee. I have a completely unnatural fear of stinging insects.

Ho Hum.

Tuesday, October 14th, 2008

One of my coworkers IM’ed me this morning. “I’m having an existential crisis,” he said. “I’m three quarters of the way through a degree plan and I realize that I don’t actually want a degree in this field anymore. I don’t want to write anymore papers. I don’t want to muse on why things happen a certain way. I don’t want to be so fucking scared about taking a test because i have no clue what is going on inside the prof’s head.”

“That’s not an existential crisis,” I told him. “It’s senioritis.”

And yet, on reflection, I’m feeling the same way about my job. I have senioritis in my job, and I haven’t been a senior for eight years.

The project that I’ve put over a year of blood, sweat, and tears into — the one that sent me off to Spain and Morocco for one round of meetings in the spring, and to Mexico a month ago for a second round of meetings — is dead in the water. It’s not the best reward for all of the effort we’ve put in, especially because we were so enthusiastic about it. The people we met with were enthusiastic. Everyone was enthusiastic. But no one wants to fund it, and that means it’s pretty much DOA.

All I have to show for our effort are some photos that I shot when we had an hour to run through this palace or that museum.

I’m very much a person who runs on momentum. When things are zipping along, I ride the wave of energy. But when things are at a lull, I’m not always the one who picks up the ball and runs with it.

It doesn’t help that everyone around here seems to be alternately harried and dragging. We’ve grown too large lately and … well, I won’t say I told you so. I’ll just tell you all that I did.

I know that I can get back in the groove. I just don’t know how right now.

‘Tis a puzzlement.

 

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